Thursday, October 25, 2007

I'm sorry

I fail to update this thing like I should. I just havn't had much time and a lot has been going on lately. Oh well.
1. I almost got arrested.
2. I bust my ass at least 10 times.
3. Mom is pissed at me
4. Add Minor
5. Waverly Hills
6. Driving in wind
7. Trish and Allyn
8. Math
9. Fred Flinstone
10. Fire in TCCW
11. Seth to WKU

If you can't tell from the list, I have a lot to blog about...

Continuing from the last post I made about me contacting Baja's girlfriend/babymamma...
Trish and I went through the drive thru where he works.. which was actually a lot of fun.. I'm insane and there was this truck in front of us.. with a big ass dog in the bed. I rolled down my window and started barking/howling loudly to see what the dog would do... basically it just looked at me like i'm a dumbass. When I eventually got up to the window, the girl working it said the dude driving the truck asked her if there was a dog in the car behind him. haha. Then I talked to her about Baja and how he's an ass... which gave me a "great" idea. Trish and I left BK and went to buy a window marker, which I proceeded to write all over Baja's windows. Stuff like " honk if you hate cheaters" " Fuck you" "Payback sucks huh?" " I get head from girls who aren't my gf!" etc. Well about an hour after we did it, I get a call. From the BGPD saying I need to call them back.
Basically I just got yelled at for doing it, and told to stay away from Baja. Whatever. Then I called Baja and yelled at him for not having the balls to deal with shit for himself.. omg it was a fucking window marker etc.
The next day he had the neve to call me and ask me to come meet him to just talk all this over. I'm a dumbass and I said yeah ok whatever and drove to the said location. He looked like shit. I don't know how else to describe it. He apologized for hurting me repeatedly and kept asking if we could just be friends. I never gave him a real response to anything, just lectured him. Then he brings me a teddy bear that he bought for me because "of how sorry he is and how bad he feels about it all" wtf so now I have a teddy bear in my room from Baja, that's cool... I don't know what the hell to do/think about any of this.

2. This week it has been raining a lot.. well the first day of the rain I definatly wore flip flops around all day.. when it rains down here, every building has a rug right inside the doors.. which eventually ends and it's just tile floor... flip flops are slick... I busted my ass in front of a lot of people at least 10 times all day. It was real embarrassing, and I have a nasty bruise on my knee.

3. For some reason my mom is pissed at me.. I think because lately whenever she calls me i'm busy with school shit or taking a nap or something.. so she thinks i'm ignoring her and that i don't have time to talk to my own mom... she doesnt' understand how busy i am right now. Like the semester is almost over, i'm failing my math 116 class because I don't understand any of it and my teacher BLOWS. But i took a retest today and hopefully I did well on it.

4. I am now a Meteorology major with a Minor in Broadcasting.

5. Waverly Hills Sanatorium, Louisville Ky. I had a tour with Brandon, Hershel, Matt Bell, Matt Meredith and Aaron on sunday. It was fucking AWESOME! we went down the death tunnel, toured the whole building, took pictures, saw shadow people, heard footsteps going down the hall when no one was visibly there and yeah it was pretty sweet! i have pictures on facebook if you want to see them.

6. Don't drive when you have really strong wind. It's scary and not easy to do. I drove to Brandon's house last night and I really thought I was going to die.. at first I thought something was wrong with my car, so I pulled over and got out to look at it, when I got out of the car I almost got blown over... it was intense... and I don't reccommend driving in wind like that... I almost didn't drive back last night, I was going to crash at brandon's.

7. In my Meteorology 121 class, there is this annoying ass dude. His name is Allyn, he "has an iq of 155" and always has something to say about everything. Maybe a personal experience, scientific explanation or whatever to make him seem even more egotistical. Ew I can't stand him.... most people can't. Anyway, Trish went to the Meteorology club meeting with me last thursday, when we were there.. who comes in.. yeahhhh Allyn. Well, Trish thought he was "so cute!" and eventually found him on myspace, they started talking, hung out once (yes.. once) and now they're dating. I'm not hanging out with her if she's going to be with him. Oh my godddd. I can't. That's all there is to it... I just can't.

8. Work party on Halloween, Fred Flinstone returns. Dk what i'm talking about... look at my fb albums.. the Fred Flinstone one. yeah, I know that's what I was last year, but hell.. new people... fucking awesome costume.. why not?

9. My math class got out early today because the fire alarms went off. i got out of a quiz.. HELL YEAH!!! Found out later that there really was a fire on the 2nd floor. crazy.

10. I get to drive Big Red around campus tomorrow. My friend Nathan is Big Red. There is a soccer game tomorrow night, starting at 6. At 6:30 I get to drive Nathan in the Big Red suit from the soccer complex to the arena... he won't have time to change, and i'm not complaining.
Seth is coming down this weekend.. so that's gonna be an experience...
after that we're going to go get dinner, go to Brandon's house, go to Joppa (the haunted church), go to the haunted bridge, then get drunk. Saturday is tailgating and the game.. yeah it's gonna be pretty fun. I dk if I have to work on sunday or not.. hopefully not because if I do i'll be hung overrrrrrr.



yeahhhh

Monday, October 15, 2007

don't let BITCHES bring you down!!!!

so I was browsing myspace the other day and I go to Baja's friends page and I find this girl... her main picture was of her and baja and her page was practically dedicated to him.
I added her so I could see the rest of her page. It said they're together and all this other bullshit. I called Baja, bitched him out... emailed the girl and told her how he's been cheating on her and that i'm sorry.. if I had known about her I would have never done anything that I did bc i'm not like that...
she didn't email back and I don't think she believes me because she changed her headline to "don't let bitches bring you down" but whatever. it's her choice to be with an asshole.

I don't care.

That's all... no one reads this anyways.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Life's funny

I love life. I really do. It's so funny how a horrible day can somehow turn out alright in the end.. in that minute right before you go to bed to hopefully wake up to a better, new day.

Yesterday I went to Huso's apartment again, but I made sara and her boyfriend Won go with me.. I figured it would be a little more fun. When we got there, Huso asked me if I would go pick up his room mate James.. first I said no because I don't want to be around him.. but me being the nice person that I am.. and not wanting to leave him stranded, i picked him up, but I made sara ride with me, not to mention it was in the ghetto. Oh but it wasn't just him, it was 3 black dudes getting into the back of my saturn.. yeahhhhh I wanted to shoot them all in the face during the drive back to Huso's because well... we had to listen to fucking some hardcore rap ( i like rap but I like to hear it, not hear them screaming the words) godddddd. When i got back to Huso's the one black dude bloc was talking to me and started shit about slavery not being over because people wear white to weddings and black to funerals or something along those lines... then he asked me to wear my sunglasses... they're white... so I told him no. haha. yeah.

I don't have a problem with black people at all...well for the most part... being in close corners with them makes me want to scream... maybe because they always are?

After a while, Huso and the black dudes leave to go get some ganj.. but after like 20 minutes, Huso comes in and said we should leave because someone just yelled outside about cops and asked me to drop him off at his friends house on my way back to campus. What the fuck ever... I definatly threw in on some green but I never got to smoke at all yesterday, all I did was play taxi cab. AAAAHHHH! I was sooo pissed off.

Anyway, after we dropped Huso off Sara, her bf and me went to the burger king that Baja works at. We met one of sara and Won's friends who happens to know Baja in the parking lot. Well, instead of hanging out with me, and taking a break or whatever, Baja went outside and talked to Demir the whole time. Which pissed me off... so i went outside to ask Baja what was going on when he got off work and he just said " i'm talking to my friend right now."
So I left him a vmail and told him he better call me back... that is if he wasn't talking to anymore of his friends.. .well he called and made me feel better...
so basically disreguard that poem i posted last night.

Other than that I think i'm still going to that party on sunday with baja.. he told me last night that he thinks it's still going on... so I dunno.. I hope it does.


Volim Te - I love you
Haj Kako Si - Hi, how are you?
Lesh Duba - lick my ass.

just a few things I learned in Bosnian.
the last one was a mean ass joke they played on me. go figure.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Worthwhile Man

When everything is up in smoke
and there's nothing left for me to do,
the only thing I want is to be with you.
I just need to know, is this real or just a joke?
In my thoughts you're all I ever see,
your arms around me, just hold me tight.
You make it all feel alright.
I need to know, do you really like me?

For the first time I had a view
of what I thought this was all about.
Now, my mind is filled with doubt
I really thought I knew.
I've done all I can
I'm not letting anyone else in this far
In my galaxy you were the brightest star.
I thought you were a worthwhile man.

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Where are the Cameras??!!

All that's missing in my life are the rolling cameras. I swear, my life should be a tv show.
I love life and all that comes with it.. hell if shit didn't happen once in a while we'd all be pretty damn bored.
So when I got back from fall break, Baja called me and said he didn't think he'd be able to make the movie we had planned on seeing that night, because he had to go pick up his sister in louisville and bring her to bg because today is her bday... whatever.. so I said, well call me when you get back to bg and we can do something else or whatever...
After I hung up from him Huso called me and he wanted to know if I wanted to come over to his apartment and smoke with him and his room mate.. so I was like.. whatever, I guess, but you have to pick me up.. so he did. Somehow or another I wound up on the couch inbetween both him and his room mate is black (i'm not exactly down with the brown) anyway, we're watching tv and both of the guys said they were cold... so i'm under this fucking huge blanket inbetween both of them... and the black dude starts feeling up on my leg and shit... so I kept inching closer to huso... idk if he was doing it on purpose or not.. but he started doing it too! I was really uncomfortable.. because the black dude would not get the hell off of me..... so I was like.. umm I have to go to the bathroom... and I got up and did not sit back down between them... huso later left to go to the store or something idk... so after like five more awkward minutes with his room mate I called him and made him pick me up I told him what was going on too.

Yesterday, Baja called me and came over when I got out of class, he's muslim and doing ramadan right now.. so we couldn't make out or anything like we normally would.. but in a way it was kinda cool. Then I went with him to get his sister's birthday present.... yeah I helped him pay for it because he didn't have enough cash on him... he got her a really cute scrubs set.. for nursing.. she's 14 and wants to be a nurse.. i really don't understand it but whatever. He told me he was going to tell her all about me and that it's from both of us... today he told me she really wants to meet me.. and he invited me to the celebration they have at the end of ramadan, which is this weekend, either saturday or sunday... a lot of his family is going to be there and it will be all bosnian music and food /games whatever... yeahhhhh it's going to be a little awkward, but i'm excited.

Meanwhile, Huso keeps calling me every day asking me to come hang out or whatever.. i don't know what to think of it all.. I really really like baja and want to be with him, and from what I can tell, the feeling is quite mutual.. we're just taking it slow.. not rushing into it... so should I feel bad for hanging out with huso???? ahhhh my life is a joke!!


yeah, today I got some paper from one of the hall directors requesting to meet with me concerning my academics... I don't understand why the fuck my hall director would care... but I'm not doing that bad in my classes, i'm getting tutored in my math class, my music class I have an a in, meteorology is prolly around a c I think because of the last test I took. but the whole class did bad. soo I don't feel that bad about it... other than that my geography class is probably around a c too... whatever.. this is all bullshit.

Huso called me today and wanted me to come over, but he's not home right now, I have a meeting at six and need to get started on some of my homework... actually come to think of it I really don't have that much... and the only thing I do have is not due until thursday. so I'm not going to do it until tomorrow after my classes.

that's it.

Fall Break

I got home for fall break on Wednesday night. It was good to be home, that's for sure. Wednesday night I worked the front door at the volleyball games at St. Agnes and got paid to basically do nothing, it was nice. After that my mom and I took my car to our mechanic to get an oil change and figure out why the windows get stuck sometimes, what the rotting smell is when I turn on the heater and fix that annoying rattle. Then we went to good ole frisch's with two of my cousins that were also at the volleyball thing. Which was pretty fun I guess. Thursday I didn't really do much, other than go shopping and guitily enjoy my mom spending money on me. That night I got to see my little cousin.. and we went through the drive through car wash with him in the car.. it was pretty funny, he didn't know what to think about it. This was also the time when I accidentally said "fucking moron" in front of him, and now he goes around saying it... yeahhh he's 2 1/2 his mom blamed me .. go figure.
Friday, my mom and I baby sat my little cousin all day, and took my car to smith muffler where I spent another 400 dollars on my car.. to total it all out to about 500. Oh well, everything is perfect now and I love my car =)

Friday I wanted to go to haunted houses, but I got dogged by one person ( i know, i know, prior engagements but I was still uber bummed) and no one else wanted to go to any. Saturday I went to the band competition.. which was a parade of old memories and of me wanting to be on the field with my old band sooooo bad, I can't really put it all into words. I was hoping I'd see cameron there or maybe a few other people I knew, but I really didn't see anyone. My mom's not supposed to be in the sun because of her 80000 medicines she's on so we only stayed for bw and wt then left around 2. It was still fun though, blast from the past that's for sure.

Sunday I played mass at the sac then in the afternoon i came back to bowling green. It was good to come home for a while, but there's no question I never want to permanently live there again. Yes all of my family is there, but I'm only close to about 10 of them (one family) so I'm not missing much. I'm never living there again.
Oh well... the drama post will follow.

Monday, October 1, 2007

What a weekend.

I rarely have time to update this... either that, or I just don't feel like it.. which is why 9 times out of ten I do a massive post about a few days at a time.
Anyway, so My friend from last year that didn't come back to WKU came into town from friday- sunday and here's how the weekend went down.

Fiday:
Katelyn called me that afternoon and said she would be in about 7 and that she would call me when she gets close and we were going to meet at Adriane's work (firehouse pizza) and hang out till she got off work. So I said alright and went into my room to take a nap until the time came.
When I met Katelyn at Firehouse, I found out that she started smoking, which is hilarious because I never thought i'd see the day. She was always the one that gave me shit for smoking myself last year.. and now she turns around she smokes herself... menthol's at that. It's great. Anyway, I walked with her to the gas station down the street so she could buy a pack of camel frosts which are nasty. We walked back to Firehouse and Adriane gave us pizza and a drink, so we ate it. Then Katelyn and I went outside to smoke some cigs and reminese.. which was fun. In the meantime Adriane's boyfriend miles comes in to get pizza, well Adriane has always been pretty sketchy about letting anyone meet him etc... I don't understand that because hell they're dating, what the hell is the big deal? So she comes out of the store behind him to follow him to his car with the massive amount of food he bought. She gets halfway accross the parking lot without introducing us, so I started coughing really loud. She turns around, flicks us off and yells, oh yeah miles that's katelyn and emily.. i yelled back, yeah it's nice to meet you, considering Adriane's always so sketchy about anyone ever meeting you!!!

When she came back up to the door she was like "that was so uncalled for" I replied with "um actually no it wasn't." and she stormed in through the doors. Fuck her.
About 1o minutes later she got off work, so her and Katelyn went back to Adriane's apartment and I went to the dorm to sleep. However, I didn't get much of it because I was up all night arguing with Adriane on the phone about her using me... the argument follows :

Adriane - why the hell did you have to say that and start drama?
me- It's really sketchy that you don't want anyone to meet him. I'm not trying to cause drama obviously you do care who meets him.
Adriane - I don't care who meets him, I was going to introduce you all.. I did right after I got out the door.
me - yeah, after I started hacking up a lung.. and you were halfway accross the parking lot.. do you have short term memory loss?
Adriane - what the fuck.. why do you even care?
me - Whatever , I really don't care now that I think abou tit... I'd rather not know the dude you're currently having unprotected sex with... I don't wanna know the father of your unborn children.
Adriane - what the fuck? i never told you I don't use them. and why the fuck is it your buisness anyway?
me - You have said, you have always said you told me you don't with anyone and not with him either.. i asked you jokingly a long time ago.
me - I don't even know why we're friends.
Adriane - Why would it be any of your buisness if i use a condom or not.. why would you care?
me - gee i don't know, having a little adriane junior running around?
adriane - yeah, me either, aparently we still have some issues that we didnt' work out over the summer. .. maybe when you grow up we can be friends again.
me - it's called being a friend - most people would get that. and I have changed, i'm not the same person i was last year, you're the one that hasn't.
Adriane - what?
me - i answered your fucking question, maybve if you cared about other peopel for once people could stand you!
Adriane - how is that being a friend
me - beign concerned abou tyou getting diseases and having kids now.
me - i tried to give you a second chance over the summer but you constantly use me and ditch me. i'm sick of it.
Adriane - you're the one that whores around.
me - whored... and it wasn't that bad either. it was maybe like 3 times and thanks but i use protection and birth control and lets see you use neither and have never taken the mornign after pill or anything.. that's why you think you're pregnant every month.
me - don't text me don't call em don't ever try to contact me again i'm through with people like you.
me - i hope you get aids and have fucked up kids live in a white trash house with another piece of shit car and wreck that one too.
me - good luck in life, i 'm real sure you'll do great things.
me - you and your it's all about me attitude and bad friend keeping skills will take you far.
me - fuck. you. have a great life.

yeah so i'm not friends with that bitch face, slut whore disease carrying waste of life anymore.
and i'm pretty fucking happy about it!

Saturday :
I had to get up at 5: 30 am and be at work at 6:45 at Kohl's it sucked ass. I checked out maybe 2 customers in the first hour and half i was there. The manager that was there is a total bitch too.. so it made my day fucking awesome.
after work I met Katelyn at red zone for dinner and then took another nap.. which was awesome. Then she came over that night and we got shit faced drunk.. I drunk dialed my cousin, cameron, nathan and a few other people, I could not even tell you what the hell happened that night, i didn't even know I drunk dialed until i woke up on the floor in my room and peopel started calling me back. There were singles all over my floor, shit spilled, my guitar hero was running all night, my rug was halfway out the winow.. then i went into the bathroom, puked and saw the fucking skull thing my ra had on counter with various other decorations was in the fucking toilet and there was definatly piss and tp in there with it. ewww. then a fucking fish swiming around in the other toilet i'm pretty sure both of those were from me and katelyn. oh my god. yeah if that's any indication of how drunk I was then I don't know what else is.

Sunday : I pretty much slept all day.

Yeah, eventful weekend.

fun times.

Cameron, for some reason you're on my drunk dial list every time I get shitty. lol.. sooo if it botheres you tell me when i'm sober and somehow i'll try to remember not to do it anymore.