9 Days.. and counting!

I don't really think anyone is ever going to read this. On that note.. i'm sure i'll say a lot of shit on here that I either might not want anyone to read, could be offensive, appaling, hilarious or any combination of said emotions.
I got the idea for this from Cameron.. I just thought it would be fun and something different to do with my time.

So today was a rather strange day. I had a girls day with my mom.. something that doesn't happen all that often. We started the day with shopping, mainly for stuff I need for school. Next we headed to Donatos for lunch which was amazing.. I havn't had it in over a year. I was hoping my friend from high school, Staci was working, but as i have HORRIBLE luck she wasn't. After that we went to see 1408 at danburry cinemas since we were going to Target and Linen's and things anyway. It was pretty good, but not really what I was expecting. I did however get to silently make fun of the dumbass 14 or so year old girls sitting in front of us. She kept trying to take a picture of herself with her friend in the middle of the movie.. on her cell phone. DUAH!
We come out of the movie and decide to go to Linen's and Things next. I couldn't find the comforter I wanted so I asked this dude whom I would later realize is gay in every sense of the word.
I have nothing against gay people.. it was just funny though.. he fit every stereotype associated with them. He was rocking the rainbow belt, bracelet and cartilage piercing.. also two studs in the ears. Tight girly looking shorts and a well taken care of hair doo. You can't forget the high pitched voice and the constant "Girl! I dunno if we have it or not!" He was also sporting some chicks name tag instead of his own... It said Brittany which is clearly a girl's name. When he was finished helping us my mom looked at him and said.. "Thanks for all your help Brittany!!" Omg it was hilarious.
All in all it was an interesting day I guess... different that's for sure.

In reguards to my title.. I leave in 9 days!! not that i'm counting or anything. I absolutely can't wait to go back down to Bowling Green Ky. My home. I feel so much more at home at school than I ever have at home. People are so much more polite down there. I'm sick of the rude ass city people. I love the spread out land of the country, the grazing cows and the sweet tea. I've made some of the best friends i've ever had down there. This has been one of the longest summers of my life. But, I have gotten a lot accomplished during the long ass days.
I got my car from my cousin. A 98 saturn, it's green and has a sunroof.. only thing I really need is new speakers. I've been working almost every day between baby sitting 3 days a week and working at Kohl's as a cashier. I recorded a Cd with my music director at church, gave flute lessons and even became top credit getter at Kohl's with special recognition from the managers.. woo hoo. I've managed to keep the peace all summer long at home.. which is a major accomplishment. I swear.. it reallllly sucks to be an only child with a single mom and never having a father figure for 19 years.
She has tried to shelter me all these years and not let me find out shit for myself... she doesnt' want me to make the mistakes she made. I finally understand this.. but until I did.. it only made me rebel more.. There was no kicking out this summer and that is definatly a good thing. My mom is my best friend.. which meand a very strange mother daughter relationship.

Hell this summer I even confessed a 5 year thing i've had for someone.. I seriously doubt anything will ever happen with it but hey at least it's out there. I thought it would make me feel better but i'm really not sure it has. I guess half of me was like.. damn if someone told me it had been five years strong I would have been like hell yeah or something along those lines.. but nothing of the sort really happened and it kinda sucks. Instead I wound up getting wasted at his house.. sending a few texts I regret and making shit awkward. I guess I always thought we had something in common. I think he is incredibly sexy, not to mention he has amazing teeth. Lol sorry I have an obsession with teeth and I won't give you the time of day if you have bad ones. Maybe I should be an Orthodontist?? I dunno.. it just sucks...after 5 years I finally let it out, we hang out, I blow it (that is if i even had anything to screw up) woowwww that came out wrong.... but it's just going to amount to nothing. Yeah it's been forever.. but still.. I guess i'm just dillusional about it all.

I'm sick of being single but on the other hand i'm also sick of guys. I get treated like shit in just about every relationship.. i've even had a few one night stands.. I just always get fucked over. While i'm sick of it.. i'm sick of being single.. yeah a one time thing can be fun I just like the feeling that someone's there for YOU... and the security.. something I havn't had too much of in my life. There's a lot behind my outgoing personality, bright smile and laugh... I only let a select few know about it.. I always choose the wrong ones to tell though.

anyway.. I just thought it would be a good thing to let it out there after all the years and it did feel a little better once I did. Thank god for Fb Honesty Box :)


Oh well 9 days until I can down an entire 5th by myself.. forget about it.. get insane.. drunk dial (which reminds me.. i better delete said person's number so I don't embarrass myself even more) smoke cigs to my hearts content.. take pictures and just enjoy it all.
WKU get ready..