FUCK THIS DAY!

God.. I must have gotten up on the wrong side of the bed or something. Everything has gone wrong today. I've been sick for a few days, but when I got up this morning I could not breathe like at all... so i took both of my inhalers and some vicks 44 before I left for class. On the way up the hill I fucking passed out.. no joke.. blacked out and everything. It was quite embarrassing to tell ya the truth. So I was late getting to class. The vicks stuff is supposed to be non drowsy but it was all I could do to keep my eyes open in math today. After class I called my doctor from hom eand asked him a few questions. I don't have health insurance right now and I really didn't wanna have a big ass bill from going to the doctor... but he told me I really needed to be seen.. so I went to my room to freshen up or whatever.. one of my fish is dead.. try to get on my internet.. and a system message comes up and says my internet has been temp. disabled because I violated something or another... it's most likely limewire.. we're technically not allowed to use limewire when we're using school's internet.. which is stupid.

So I went to the health center on campus... I drove there... I didn't want to walk because I really feel like shit...
they gave me a breathing treatment.. and now i'm coughing shit up like every five minutes.. it's nasty.. I have to get a bunch of medicine/steroids. I looked on the internet in the computer lab to see if the bank would still be open so I could get money to get my meds. It said online that it would be if I went through the drive through. I get to the drive through at 5:10... internet said it closed at 5:30 but the girl at the window told me they were closed... so I said rudely.. " well then you all need to change your shit on the internet... aparently you're not following company policy because it's the main fucking bank's website."

and I drove off.. so i have no meds.

So I called my friend adriane to see if she wanted to get dinner with me... she said no.
Which pisses me off because she's got an apartment with my supposed best friend/other half... they're now up each other's asses and yet never have time for me... i guess you'd have to be in the situation to understand how I really feel about it.. I just feel betrayed I guess... that's the only word I can think of.

Then there's this dude that really likes me... i know i've led him on.. we've messed around etc... and he introduces me to his friends as his girl... i have a feeling that the next time i see him he's going to ask me out... and I really don't find him very attractive... he's a nice guy... I don't know how to tell him no and not be a bitch about it... if that's even possible... someone give me a suggestion please!!!!!!

someone told me to tell him i don't want a relationship right now.. but that'd be lying... I do... I can live without one.. but it'd be nice to not be single... I just don't wanna date him. HELP!

Then my phone rings and it's from a number idk.. so I answered it.. and it's the dude that for about a year.. and finally left me alone at the end of this summer... after he professed his undying LOVE for me!! AAAHHHH! It was very awkwad.. but he wanted to tell me he got a cell phone... and aparently he has text now too because he's been texting me all fucking afternoon... OH MY GOD!



so pretty much this is the day from hell.

Thanks God, you're fucking hilarious!

Hello Beautiful Day

Today is a relatively good day.... so far anyway.
I broke up with Billy the other day. I can't deal with it. End of story. I woke my ass up on time this morning and actually went to my geography class and found out that I didn't really miss anything :) Then in my Math class I wasn't late for once, have some easy ass homework. Next I hit up my music appreciation class which is a joke anyway. Even more hilarious is that for some reason we were talking about queen bees... and some girl goes off on a dude that made a supposedly anti-femminist comment and she screams

"FOR YOUR INFORMATION, ALL QUEEN BEES ARE FEMALE! AND IF I HEAR YOU MAKE ONE MORE ANTI FEMMINIST COMMENT I'M GOING TO COME OVER THERE AND SMACK YOU!!"

lmao. everyone got quiet then busted out laughing.. it was hilarious. oh my god.. after class she went up to him and started yelling at him. It was AWESOME! I love watching other peoples drama.. or watching fights it's great.

Then I go get lunch with my friend Nathan at Subway and we went to do our meteorology lab. I did a lot better on this one then on the last one... so it made me feel better about myself :) which is always a good thing.

Also, I'm talking to a new guy, he seems really sweet.. funny story on how I met him though.
My best friend brandon works at minit mart on the edge of town, graveyard shift on weekends... so I went to visit him sunday night. I'm sitting outside smoking and this guy pulls up in a badass car.. with black rims with silver lining.. so I complimented him on his car. He asked for my number so I gave it to him.
Well he called me, and I hung out with him on monday night. He said he noticed me when he got there and was going to say something at first but is shy so he decided not to.. and then go figure.. i said something to him...
I just thought that was kinda funny.
Anyway... life's pretty good right now.. other than the fact that my fish died after like 2 days. i'm pissed.

oh well it was only 29 cents. I think i'm going to go buy like 5 fish and keep them all in the tank.. it'll look a lot more sweet with 5 than 2 I think.. oh well.. walmart.. here we come again!

Study Abroad

Yes! I'm going abroad this summer!!!! May 15th - June 7th ishhh.. I might be a little wrong with those dates. But I get to go to Western Turkey (Istanbul and Izmir), several Greek Islands (Naxos, Santorini), Athens, northern Italy (Venice and Verona), and Slovenia (Ljubljana and Bled).

I'M SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!

Ft. Campbell

This week consisted mainly of me trying to get someone to drive and hour and a half to Fort Campbell Kentucky to visit Pvt. 1st class Benson. Aka Billy.
Well, on Wednesday i actually found someone willing to drive down with me. Renee and Trish said they would go. So Wednesday evening we got in my car and drove down. We get to the base and I tried to get a pass to get in. The guard said he needed our drivers liscenses, insurance and registration on my car. I don't have my registration on my car like actually with me for some reason and they wouldn't let me in. I serioulsy felt retarded. and the guard was actually laughing at me. Awesome. Thank God Trish's friend, whom we were also going to meet up with, had a car. He met us in a parking lot near base, we pile in his car and he gets us on base.
When we finally find Billy's barracs we go back to my car and Billy and I get into mine and we just drove around and talked. For once in my life of dating, he did not just want to get in my pants so to speak. He actually listened to me when i was talking, he wanted to know about me.. blah blah blah.. We eventually held hands and made out. One thing led to another and we're dating now.. but NO all I did was make out with him. I'm not a whore.
He promised me he will take me to do all the things i've never done like four wheeling, mudding, riding a horse, milking a cow, hunting, fishing etc. He said he is going to take me to do all these things, which is awesome. But I've gotta wait 15 months to two years to get to do them.

Why? Because he's going to Iraq in the middle of October and will be over there for up to two years. Which blows. Am I stupid for agreeing to date him? I'm willing to wait, I don't cheat on the people I date, because it's happened to me before, it's not right. I like him alot, he treats me right and is a sweetheart. I just don't know. In a way my life won't be as stressful.. I don't have to care about guys now.. not that I have lately anyway... and I can just focus on school work... but on the other hand.. it could be a lot more stressful.. I don't know anyone that's over seas anymore... and now I will.. and it'll be worse because it'll be my boyfriend. I just don't know.. do ya'll think i'm stupid? Is this a bad decision?

The past week... and a little more.

So the week started out with me realizing that a lot of my friends aren't what they seem. And that i'm way too forgiving . So, I asked two of my friends if they wanted to go to red zone with me, they agreed and we set a time. Well, the time came and went.. and there I sat like a douche bag out in the valley waiting for them. I called and they didn't answer... called again and they finally pick up. They tell me that they already ate... in the dorm. What the hell?? Thanks for ditching me assholes... now I had to go up to duc by myself.. which isn't that big of a deal.. I have always done shit on my own.. but at dinner everyone goes with other people.. friends... somehow a lot of mine are non existant right now.
It really pisses me off when people back out or ditch me for no real reason. If they knew they already had plans.. then why would you fucking schedule to do something with me?? Leaving me, once again.. out in the cold.

Then the next day.. same thing happens with another friend. Every tuesday and thursday me, brandon and adriane (sometimes adriane's friend robin) go eat when they get out of class around six. Well, earlier that day I asked brandon if he wanted to go over to bret's apartment after dinner and he was like yeah sure... so after we eat dinner, (during which brandon and I were talking about going to brets again) we all walk to adriane's car. She was going to drop brandon and I off across campus at brandon's car. So we get to his car.. he gets out and i follow him so Adriane pulls away... I go to get in his car and he was like what the fuck are you doing? I was like ... uhhh we're fucking going to brets asshole! he was like.. oh umm i have plans with my other dudes from edmonson county, they're waiting for me at minit mart.. bye. and fucking pulls away.
I thought he was just pulling a funny and would be back in a minute.. so I stand there waiting.. looking like a dumbass to all the people walking in the parking lot...
He doesn't come back after like 10 minutes so I called him, he said he was at minit mart already and that I better start walking because i'll be standing there a long ass time if I don't.
So I fucking had to walk like 2 miles back to my fucking dorm... god damn it I was so pissed.. so in the meantime bret calls and i told him what jackass did.. and I wind up driving to brets anyway.
EWWWWWW why the fuck do people like to treat me like complete shit!? The only thing that really happened on wednesday was that fucking Baya gave his friend my number.. Which pisses me off. This dude claims he's from America and can speak some bosnian.. what the hell.. that's why when he called me at 5 am he had the same fucking accent that Baya, Ziky and Bekto have? Anyway.. I was a bitch to him on text and the phone but he persisted so i decided to give him a chance... whatever.. he text me first thing in the morning too..and all fucking day. so i was like fine ... it's thirsty thursday i'll fucking drink with you whatever, but i'm bringing a friend..
So I made my friend Trish go with me to meet him and his friend at Zaxby's parking lot. We pull up and the dude walks over to my side of my car and was like ummm if you wanna drink that's cool.. i can take your car back to campus.. but my friend has to go home in like a half hour and my brother has my car so I dunno what we're going to do...
So I decide we can just all go back to my dorm or something.. so they follow me to to the dorm.. and then sean( the dude) calls me and says that he has to go to his house really fast to take his brother something and he'll call me when he gets back.. blah blah blah... Trish and I proceed into her dorm instead of mine and go to Renee's room and I got shit faced in about 15 minutes... called Baya and CUSSED him out on the phone for giving out my number.. but he said he didn't give it to him.. that Sean took his phone and got my number out of it... FUCKING HILARIOUS SHIT because Baya's in fucking louisville.. and sean is in bowling green!!!! ewwwww. So I was like FUCK YOU AND ALL YOUR FUCKING BOSNIAN FAMILY AND FRIENDS.. GO BACK TO BOSNIA.. YOU DON'T BELONG HERE ANYWAY! and hung up on him. Then I drink a lot more and go outside with trish and renee to smoke... the rest of the night is a blur.. aparently I told one of the desk workers that came out to smoke at our picnic table that I was wasted off my ass.. called cameron a couple times.. no clue what i said in the voice mails I left him and eventually woke up in my own room the next morning...


Also, in my meteorology class, our tables are set up like semi circles.. two of them.. an inner one and an outer one.. I sit at the outer one.. the chairs are also really nice and on wheels... anyway this dude that sits like 3 sets down from me was eating skittles.. all of a sudden boom.. his table shot foreward like 3 feet and his chair tipped over backwards, skittles went everywhere.. perfect timing.. some dude was like.. "taste the rainbow!" and the teacher says.. " well if you wanted to share the skittles with the class, you coulda passed them out before class!" lmao it was hilarious!!

Goddd today I was like 2 seconds from passing out on the way to class, felt horrible, and I about puked when I got there. goooood times.
I skipped my first class, but made it to all the other ones.
Music appreciation is an absolute JOKE!

anywayyy that is all.
my life is a joke.
someone's watching and laughing their fucking asssssss off. not funny jackass!

I give up on guys, I honestly used to care.. now fuck them.. other than the ones i'm actually friends with.. all the other ones can fucking rot in hell.. i don't care.. i don't want kids.

also, who reads this shit? let me know.

Are you afraid of the dark?

So, there's this bridge. A bridge that in the early 19oo's, while walking home a girl in her late teens was raped by two drunk guys, thrown over the side of and drowned under. Ledgend has it that when you drive over this bridge at night (it doesn't work in daylight, I know, i've tried) stop in the middle of it turn your car off and put it in neutral, she will push you accross. It works, i've done it a million times. You're also supposed to put flour on your bumpers and there will be wet hand prints all over in the flower from where she pushed you. I told my room mate about the bridge, and we went. We stopped at Kroger to get the flour and I poured a shit ton of it all over my car. We went to the bridge and it worked yet again. Erica (my roomie) was practically crying (she's afraid of the dark and anything associated with it) and I shit you not there were hand prints.
It was awesome!! It's so much more fun if you go with someone that's never been before.. so if anyone wants to come to Bowling Green, i'll take you to the bridge :)
I decided not to go through the car wash for a few days afterwards... bad idea.. the flour got wet from the little rain we had.. and then baked on by the sun. So when I went home for the fireworks yesterday my mom was like "what the hell is on your car?" So It took me like an hour to wash it all off... btw.. it wouldn't all come off....