The past week... and a little more.

So the week started out with me realizing that a lot of my friends aren't what they seem. And that i'm way too forgiving . So, I asked two of my friends if they wanted to go to red zone with me, they agreed and we set a time. Well, the time came and went.. and there I sat like a douche bag out in the valley waiting for them. I called and they didn't answer... called again and they finally pick up. They tell me that they already ate... in the dorm. What the hell?? Thanks for ditching me assholes... now I had to go up to duc by myself.. which isn't that big of a deal.. I have always done shit on my own.. but at dinner everyone goes with other people.. friends... somehow a lot of mine are non existant right now.
It really pisses me off when people back out or ditch me for no real reason. If they knew they already had plans.. then why would you fucking schedule to do something with me?? Leaving me, once again.. out in the cold.

Then the next day.. same thing happens with another friend. Every tuesday and thursday me, brandon and adriane (sometimes adriane's friend robin) go eat when they get out of class around six. Well, earlier that day I asked brandon if he wanted to go over to bret's apartment after dinner and he was like yeah sure... so after we eat dinner, (during which brandon and I were talking about going to brets again) we all walk to adriane's car. She was going to drop brandon and I off across campus at brandon's car. So we get to his car.. he gets out and i follow him so Adriane pulls away... I go to get in his car and he was like what the fuck are you doing? I was like ... uhhh we're fucking going to brets asshole! he was like.. oh umm i have plans with my other dudes from edmonson county, they're waiting for me at minit mart.. bye. and fucking pulls away.
I thought he was just pulling a funny and would be back in a minute.. so I stand there waiting.. looking like a dumbass to all the people walking in the parking lot...
He doesn't come back after like 10 minutes so I called him, he said he was at minit mart already and that I better start walking because i'll be standing there a long ass time if I don't.
So I fucking had to walk like 2 miles back to my fucking dorm... god damn it I was so pissed.. so in the meantime bret calls and i told him what jackass did.. and I wind up driving to brets anyway.
EWWWWWW why the fuck do people like to treat me like complete shit!? The only thing that really happened on wednesday was that fucking Baya gave his friend my number.. Which pisses me off. This dude claims he's from America and can speak some bosnian.. what the hell.. that's why when he called me at 5 am he had the same fucking accent that Baya, Ziky and Bekto have? Anyway.. I was a bitch to him on text and the phone but he persisted so i decided to give him a chance... whatever.. he text me first thing in the morning too..and all fucking day. so i was like fine ... it's thirsty thursday i'll fucking drink with you whatever, but i'm bringing a friend..
So I made my friend Trish go with me to meet him and his friend at Zaxby's parking lot. We pull up and the dude walks over to my side of my car and was like ummm if you wanna drink that's cool.. i can take your car back to campus.. but my friend has to go home in like a half hour and my brother has my car so I dunno what we're going to do...
So I decide we can just all go back to my dorm or something.. so they follow me to to the dorm.. and then sean( the dude) calls me and says that he has to go to his house really fast to take his brother something and he'll call me when he gets back.. blah blah blah... Trish and I proceed into her dorm instead of mine and go to Renee's room and I got shit faced in about 15 minutes... called Baya and CUSSED him out on the phone for giving out my number.. but he said he didn't give it to him.. that Sean took his phone and got my number out of it... FUCKING HILARIOUS SHIT because Baya's in fucking louisville.. and sean is in bowling green!!!! ewwwww. So I was like FUCK YOU AND ALL YOUR FUCKING BOSNIAN FAMILY AND FRIENDS.. GO BACK TO BOSNIA.. YOU DON'T BELONG HERE ANYWAY! and hung up on him. Then I drink a lot more and go outside with trish and renee to smoke... the rest of the night is a blur.. aparently I told one of the desk workers that came out to smoke at our picnic table that I was wasted off my ass.. called cameron a couple times.. no clue what i said in the voice mails I left him and eventually woke up in my own room the next morning...


Also, in my meteorology class, our tables are set up like semi circles.. two of them.. an inner one and an outer one.. I sit at the outer one.. the chairs are also really nice and on wheels... anyway this dude that sits like 3 sets down from me was eating skittles.. all of a sudden boom.. his table shot foreward like 3 feet and his chair tipped over backwards, skittles went everywhere.. perfect timing.. some dude was like.. "taste the rainbow!" and the teacher says.. " well if you wanted to share the skittles with the class, you coulda passed them out before class!" lmao it was hilarious!!

Goddd today I was like 2 seconds from passing out on the way to class, felt horrible, and I about puked when I got there. goooood times.
I skipped my first class, but made it to all the other ones.
Music appreciation is an absolute JOKE!

anywayyy that is all.
my life is a joke.
someone's watching and laughing their fucking asssssss off. not funny jackass!

I give up on guys, I honestly used to care.. now fuck them.. other than the ones i'm actually friends with.. all the other ones can fucking rot in hell.. i don't care.. i don't want kids.

also, who reads this shit? let me know.